What’s Next?

I’ve been a huge blogging slump lately.  I just haven’t felt like I’ve had anything to say. I feel like I’m entering a new phase in my journey, now that my babies’ first Heaven Days have passed.  I don’t know what’s next, but it feels good so far.

Instead of feeling further from the memory of my children, and from the day that I held them in my arms, I am feeling better.  More free from the haze that I have been living in over the past year.  More like myself again.  Oh, how I’ve missed me!

The grief will inevitably come and go in waves, like it usually does.  As you may know, all too well, this whole grief thing is really unpredictable.  One of the hardest parts about it, is that there is no controlling it.  For those of us who are used to controlling just about everything in our lives, grief can really though you for a loop.  I acknowledge this is now a part of my life and I’m learning how to cope with it. 

Thanks to our memories, my blog, and all of your support, the memory of The Green Beans will live on forever.  They will always be perfect in our memories and in heaven.   I’m lucky to have them in my life.

I look forward to what God has planned for me.   I can’t wait for what’s next!