Monday, June 29, 2009


Today, June 29th, marks the estimated delivery date that my doctor originally gave me, had I been pregnant with a singleton. At just 6 weeks pregnant, we discovered we were having quads, so this date was quickly replaced with our goal delivery date of May 18th (34 weeks). Just thinking about my babies today (everyday, actually) and wishing they were here...

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  1. ((hugs)) lauren.

    my due date with my twins was june 29th too, of 2008. crazy that we share that connection.

    for me, once i passed the due date, i felt some relief. praying its the same for you...


  2. Hi Lauren.

    I can't even begin to imagine what you're feeling right now, but know that I'm praying for you.

    You are an absolute inspiration to me, as I've begun to read your blog (found it through another quad mom). You and Josh have been through the unthinkable. I admire and respect the way you've continued to live... not necessarily moving on, but moving through... and taking the love and memories you have of your four children with you.

    I'm praying for you.

  3. Lauren, I am so sorry. (((Hugs))) Like Devon said, passing my due date with Vivian and Annemarie gave me a lot of relief- it wasn't always "I would be this pregnant by now..." but of course, that was soon replaced with "this time last year i was this many weeks pregnant"- I'm hoping that when I pass the year mark, this too will fade. I am learning that it all takes time- lots of time and not to rush it.

    I hope that passing your due date gives you some peace, and a little bit of healing...many hugs to you. I know how much you miss all four of your little ones.


  4. Oh, Lauren... I also can't even imagine... Just praying your heart finds comfort. Hugs.

  5. Lauren,

    EDD are one of those awful dates that stick in your head for a long time. Mine is June 23rd...I hate that date. Multiple losses are so hard because sometimes you have so many dates that you have to battle through. It feels like it takes forever to get passed that really awful time of year. I hope that the sunshine of summer lightens your spirits just a little. Keep doing what you are foot in front of the other. Thinking of you...

  6. I have no words, just prayers & hugs for you. I just can't imagine what the day is like for you.
    I pray that your arms are full soon with 4 amazing little angels to watch over them.

  7. Hey hon, Im so sorry and I completely feel your pain. Mine is coming up July 24th and Im already anxious about it. Just know that you are thought of and that you are a source of encouragement and inspiration to me. You have a great heart and have come a long way to try and have happier days. You are doing so good and I am proud of you. I will light a candle for your sweet angels tonight. Hugs to you xoxo Nan

  8. Lauren, I remember seeing your story somewhere else. My heart aches for you. I lost a little boy at 22 weeks gestation back in Dec 2003, so I understand the pain of losing a baby...but not YOUR pain losing all four of your precious little ones.

    Sending you {{{{{HUGS}}}} and letting you know that I'm thinking of you and your babies today.

    P.S. I live in the Tampa area (well over on the other side of the bay, in Largo).

  9. Lauren - one of the things I cringe most at with loss is the number of days of the year that get tinged for us. Your edd is a very special day. Thinking of you as you navigate this first year.


  10. Lauren,

    Thanks for the comment. My trio were born at 23w6d gestation. An awful, awful grey zone to have them be born at. If you want you can email me at and we can talk more in private :)

    If you want I can add your green beans to my Heaven's Butterfly Garden too...

  11. I am thinking of you babe!!! XOXOXO

  12. Lauren, keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Your loss is unimaginable but the love surrounding you is not. xxxx

  13. I wish they were here also. Thinking of you and Josh.

  14. Lauren,

    I'm sure yesterday was hard...I hope you were able to find some peace. Remembering your "green beans" today and every day...


  15. Lo,
    thinking of you this week and praying for you always.

  16. I cannot even begin to imagine the loss sadness and devastation that you are feeling. I had a loss, as did my sister, my sister lost her son at 38wks and they don't know why. The only thing that I can say is that God hears and sees your tears, He is there with you. I don't know why things happen, but He does and it is for His glory in the end.
    That is probably hard to hear, at this stage, it has been 7months since we lost RJ and we remind ourselves constantly that it is He who knows all, even on the bad days. God bles you, my prayers are with you

  17. Lauren, You'll find more dates that will be heart tuggers. Just remember, they are always with you, just tucked under your heart.
    Praying for you!

  18. BIG BIG GIANT HUGS to you!!!!


  19. Lauren, please know that I've continued to pray for you and think of you often. I hope you are able to find peace soon.

  20. I just read through your entire blog and am heartbroken we are in the same spot. Our babies were ht eame size, it shows how small Nolan was for 26 weeks. I noticed your close to me, Im in Ft Myers. Feel free to email me, it's nice talking to other mothers that understand what we are feeling.
    -Nolan's Mom