Here we go again… My Green Beans’ birthdays are right around the corner. Once mid-January comes around, it hits me…. and I am constantly thinking about what to say about them this year and what I can do to honor them. I love reflecting on them especially on their birthdays because it’s a nice time to share my memories and how they’ve blessed me. As each year passes, my memories of them fade, so I get nervous about what these days will be like in 5 or 10 years?? Writing about them helps ease that anxiety as it helps me to preserve their memory.
Over the past few years, I have lost a lot, I have hurt a lot, and I have been in some dark places. But, only by the grace of God, have I come out of this with a sense of peace over me. Also, I’ve come away from this with a greater, deeper faith, and a trust in God. There have been points in my life where literally everything has been stripped away from me. I have been broken down to the bare minimum; yet God continues to not only bless me, but abundantly bless me! Although things have not worked out the way I thought they would, God’s will was still done and will continue to be. Through the journey that I have endured, I am now at a place where I can say that I am 100 percent okay with what God’s will is for my life. I have given up complete control of my life to Him because I have nothing to lose and only wonderful things to gain! I have complete and utter trust that my future is bright and that more good will come.
In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight. - Proverbs 3:6
I have hurt a lot along the way, and I’m not saying that I still don’t have those sad and hurt days, mourning the things that I lost, but I know that my future is so bright and that good will prevail in the end. My gifts are stored up in heaven and that will be for eternity! How can you argue with that?! God is in control of my life and I am just along for the ride…