Thursday, January 26, 2012

Gotta Have Faith

Here we go again… My Green Beans’ birthdays are right around the corner.  Once mid-January comes around, it hits me…. and I am constantly thinking about what to say about them this year and what I can do to honor them.  I love reflecting on them especially on their birthdays because it’s a nice time to share my memories and how they’ve blessed me.  As each year passes, my memories of them fade, so I get nervous about what these days will be like in 5 or 10 years??  Writing about them helps ease that anxiety as it helps me to preserve their memory. 

Over the past few years, I have lost a lot, I have hurt a lot, and I have been in some dark places.  But, only by the grace of God, have I come out of this with a sense of peace over me.  Also, I’ve come away from this with a greater, deeper faith, and a trust in God.  There have been points in my life where literally everything has been stripped away from me.  I have been broken down to the bare minimum; yet God continues to not only bless me, but abundantly bless me! Although things have not worked out the way I thought they would, God’s will was still done and will continue to be.  Through the journey that I have endured, I am now at a place where I can say that I am 100 percent okay with what God’s will is for my life.  I have given up complete control of my life to Him because I have nothing to lose and only wonderful things to gain!  I have complete and utter trust that my future is bright and that more good will come. 

In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.  - Proverbs 3:6

I have hurt a lot along the way, and I’m not saying that I still don’t have those sad and hurt days, mourning the things that I lost, but I know that my future is so bright and that good will prevail in the end.  My gifts are stored up in heaven and that will be for eternity!  How can you argue with that?!  God is in control of my life and I am just along for the ride…

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  1. I am so proud of you and the level of integrity and trust in the Lord that maintained throughout EVERYTHING you have been through. Your story is testament to all those who wil walk down paths similar to yours that they can (& will) make it through this time.
    I love you and think you are one of the most beautiful women I know...and an amazing mother-to all five of your children.
    Lauren Brigman

  2. It makes me smile to think of such treasures in Heaven. Those are the real treasures in our lives!

  3. you are amazing! i love your heart...

    i'm always afraid, too, that as time goes on my memories of my boys will become less and less and that makes me so sad. so thankful that we have the HOPE of heaven!

    love you girl!

  4. You are beautiful, Lauren, and I am so proud of you for how you've carried yourself through things that are difficult by anyone's standards! I am excited to see what God does in your life as you walk with Him and learn to trust Him more. Love you!

  5. You are a great example! Thanks for posting this. :)

  6. Amen! So encouraged to read this. Blessings on you, Lauren and Taylor!

  7. You are one tough cookie, Lauren & I always look up to you! Love you lots!

  8. Lauren I have followed your blog for a while and I just wanted to say that you inspire me. I too have been through some life changing experiences in the last year and your words above hit home to me. It has been amazing to me to see how much my own faith has grown from the trials that have been placed in my life. Thank you for being such an encouragement to me.